JennyHebb
1 post
29-Feb-2008
8:01 AM
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I was raised in the church. I've been in love with GOD since the age of 13. I found myself haveing a strong passion to serve GOD from my youth. I am now 20 and still young! I started smokeing pot when I turned 18. I moved out of my mothers home and was on my own. The world was overwhelming to deal with. I didn't know how evil society was because I was shelttered my whole life. It was so overwhelming that I began to smoke pot because I would have a constant battle with worriness and anxiety. I had forgotten who I was, why I was here on earth and what my purpose was. I began doing things that disgust me. It was horrible and I had lost my faith during this time in my life. This lasted for about 2 years. Now I have quit smokeing pot and I still suffer from anxiety. I coped with it for so long by getting high. Now, since I want to start anew, Im haveing such a difficult time. My only answer: either let doctors medicate me with anti-anxiety pills or allow GOD to medicate me with his power and peace. I am choseing GOD. I still suffer. I feel it right now. But my faith in GOD is great and I will not give up. I know GOD allows things to happen in life for a purpose. In knowing this, I thank GOD for all of His mercy and grace upon my life. I know one day I will be healed from anxiety. This is not from GOD but from the enemy and I am a worriar in Christ. I will never turn to pot again! I will win this battle in Christ name!
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